When I was younger I heard the story of an artist that killed himself in his art so that he could survive in real life. Living most of my life through the lenses of depression, that sounded like a way for me to save myself. That became the pillar of this project. Still, it’s a project that is still unfinished as I think subconciously I have been waiting to be in a better place to finish the project.
When I started working on this project I was at a point in my life where I felt lost. I felt as if I was going around in circles, making the same mistakes stuck in the same place. From this experience and wanting to let go of everything that was holding me back, I set up to create a concept album in which I would methaphorically kill myself in the pursuit of finding meaning in my life.
Here are some more details on the brief I put together a few years ago:
The concept of this album is based around the concept of resilience. Resilience is the ability of a substance or object to spring back into shape, the capacity to recover quickly from difficulties. In a more psychological concept, resilience is the ability of turning any liability into an advantage no matter how many times it brings you down.
This album projects this concept by creating a narrative in which humanity goes down the wrong path and later on recovers by going back to its roots. The album consists of 7 songs where each song tells a certain part of this story. For practical purposes I’ll list the tracks with its corresponding narrative part.
TRACKS:
- The end is the beginning / program.init
This is the beginning of our story. This song talks about anger and hatred towards one another. This part of the story portraits humanity in a constant war with itself. One of the feelings that I tried to capture was greed and self hatred. We know we are doing something wrong but as long as my personal interests are covered I don’t care about the consequences of my actions.
- …and then there was none. / extinción
After years of wars, humanity has nearly extinguished itself. A feeling of hopelessness surrounds all that is left. There’s an imminent sensation that humanity is grieving its own existence. This song is meant to project sadness and depression. Feeling as if none of what you do mattered to the universe. What’s the purpose of existing if death is marching towards us one day at a time?
- Dystopian Utopía / distopía.utópica
When all hope left the human collectiveness the only way left for it to go was to technological advances. After all the death caused by war technology was the apparent saviour of our souls. Sooner we realized that this technology wasn’t going to be used to save humanity, but to enslave it. What first appeared as a Utopia didn’t take long to turn into the dystopia we always feared. This relates to when someone, after losing everything, they turn to addictions to try and cope or fill the void left by all that was lost.
- Resist, Create / resistir.crear
As we’ve seen throughout history, whenever the situation hits rock bottom ideas start to surge. Little by little these ideas turn into a concept and later into a belief. Humanity may be lost in its own misery but people are starting to wake up and break the chains that were imposed unto them. They want change and so they start to rebel to their own kind. Hope rebirths from the ashes of humanity’s collectiveness. This song relates to whenever you’ve had enough of fucking things up and realize you want to change the way you’ve been living your life. Create a better life for yourself.
- Resist, Defeat / resistir.vencer
With every good intention we come up in the world comes opposition. Comes the people who are better off in their comfort zone. Comes the people who want to enslave us to their own agenda. We have to resist, we have to defeat the apathy created by our own self hatred and transform it into the hope and change we want to see in the world. We are all part of the bigger picture, part of one entity. You and I are community, you and I are part of what makes us human.
- Resist, Transcend / resistir.trascender
The path we paved was filled with hopes and unity between one another. A sense of integrity and brotherhood rules humanity. We have transcended our collective mind to work towards the bigger picture, the preservation of life and all that it means. We are one, we are all, we are part of a whole. We may still be afraid, we may still hate but we will never be left alone with ourselves.
- I am no longer here / program.exit
We break the generational cycles. We leave a better place for the people who come after. It’s the turn of the new generation to continue with the legacy that humanity has created. This is a rememberance song to all those people who aren’t with us anymore but that left a mark in our souls for us to carry them over. We carry a piece of their souls on every breath we take. We carry their will in every fight we win.