I got really bad fucking news yesterday, and I don’t know what to do with myself. I think it was so bad that my depression started acting out again. I feel mostly numb about everything else that is going on in my life. I hope that I can eventually talk about it to honor the whole situation.
For better or for worse, I’ve been away from my keyboard a lot these past few days! I’ve finished yet another book. It was the “How to Talk to Anyone” book by Leil Lowndes. I don’t think I can say I liked it, but it did have some interesting points. Overall, I think it is very outdated.
I hadn’t realized that communication books are also considered Self Help books. I don’t know why ever since I started considering them Self Help books they have lost my interest in a lot of what I’ve been reading. It possibly is because I feel like they want to scam me or something like that. I guess the positive part of this is that I am now more critical with what I take from them than before. Taking the advice with a grain of salt.
I just got my English Certification results as well, and I passed the C1 level. It is a bit bittersweet because they don’t provide any feedback or anything of the answers that I got wrong. I hate standardized tests.
I have enjoyed writing my izzzzi’s journal posts recently more than before. I feel like they are a quick way where I can express some of the thoughts that I’ve kept in my mind for too long. Not sure how much time I will have this week for longer posts, but I will try to allow myself the space to write something down.
alephtwo - I’ve been going through similar thoughts recently. My main reason for going into programming was because I was afraid of being an artist. But, all my life I’ve been drawn to anything that is artistic. Music, illustration, modelling, photography, writing even anything that can be used as a way of expression I am deeply fascinated by it. So, I guess that now that I am allowing myself to pursue those mediums I question myself if to be an artist depends on the eye of the beholder, or if I can just assume that identity. Idk, crazy thoughts sometimes.
palomakop - Hope you feel better soon! Definitely looking forward to seeing the isometric studio!
csepp - Congrats to both you and Daffodil! :D
tidalpunk - I always love the pictures and stories that you share!